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| Wishing all tbloggers A HAPPY NEW YEAR! |
| 12.31.03 (3:29 am) [edit] |
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Taking a break from my mundane blogging to wish all the EXCELLENT TBLOGGERs a great 2004 ahead! May more exciting suprises come our way!
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| What's spinning? |
| 12.30.03 (6:30 pm) [edit] |
Listening to Paul Van Dyk's "Time of our lives". A strangely uplifting song.
Was pleasantly suprised when I visited my mom at the hospital ward late last evening. The cough hav subsided and she seems to be in good spirit. Thank God for her recovery.
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| I wish... I really do. |
| 12.30.03 (8:38 am) [edit] |
I've lost count of the days since she left. It's been many months since I last saw her. Almost a year since I begged her in vain not to leave.
Which was why I was really surprised yet troubled when she suddenly asked to meet for lunch. Just as a friend who wishes to catch up after a long time. Friend. I'm not even sure if I dare use this word as we no longer keep in touch save for a sms once in a blue moon. I was a little reluctant to meet up after all these time; after wallowing in all the hurt and loneliness.
I left whatever I was workin on at the office to pick her up during lunch. We headed off to a small little restaurant to grab a bite. I still remember she likes Japanese food. Darn, it was awkward. She wanted to know how I was doing. I pretended everything was fine and forced a smile.
Here she was, sitting right in front of me; still the ever exuberant girl I fell in love with. But today, we were total strangers. I can hardly believe, barely a year back, she was resting her head on my lap. I was caressing her soft hair while we savored the sunset at our special spot on the beach. That was then. I know she now has a new life and someone else to care for her. I'm very much aware of that.
But how I wish I could reach out and hold her hand, hug her tightly, never let go. Just one last time. I once told her I was willing to wait for her. Days turn to months. Months turn to almost a year. I never got an answer. She moved on. I was still stuck in a perpetual time warp.
As I dropped her off at her company, I waited till her silhouette disappeared into the corridors which lead to the main building. This might be the last time I get to see her alone. I drove off, headed back to my office; carrying a dazed mind. As I turned off the ignition, I ended crying my eyes out in my car. I miss her so very badly. If only she knew.
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| Surreal. |
| 12.28.03 (11:22 pm) [edit] |
[i]Suki na mono dake o erande'ku no ga
Musekinin datte wake janai
Suki na mono sae mo mitsukerarezu ni
Sekinin nante toriyou mo nai
Seou kakugo no bun dake kanousei o te ni shiteru
Iranai mono nara sono doujoushin
Maru de yaku ni mo tatanai ne
Daiji na mono nara sore ni kanarazu
Itamitomonau hazu da yo ne
Hitori bocchi de kanjiru kodoku yori
Futari de ite mo kanjiru kodoku no hou ga
Tsurai koto no you ni[/i]
Hmm... my earlier blogs 2day seems a little harsh after reading it later during the day. Sumimasen...
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| 7dust. |
| 12.28.03 (8:38 pm) [edit] |
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Listening to Sevendust's "Enemy" at the moment. The monstrous guitar riffs are a perfect complement to my mood this afternoon. Guess I'll loop it a couple more times before my eardrums rupture.
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| Monday? Bah!!! |
| 12.28.03 (7:29 pm) [edit] |
I'm at the office. Wearing the same shirt I went to bed in last night. Feeling really bitchy at the moment...
What's the problem wiv some ppl? U wanna brag? Brag somewhere else u darn sob. My girlfren this... my girlfren that. Fcuk that. The whole constellation knows u hav a damn girlfren. What u do with ur gf is ur own damn private business. Do u hav to begin every bloody sentence with "My gf and I ..."
Dude... I know u are juz showing affection. But u need not go overboard wiv it. I hav other frens who are juz as madly in love as u are... which is way cool...but they're kind enuf to spare me the torture u put me thru. The fingers and toes on my hands and feet aren't enuf to count the number of times u repeat that sickening mantra or urs each day.
U need somewhere to release that overflowing lovey dovey feelings of urs? Go write a blog. Or write a poem or something. Now let me be. I've got tonnes of work to do. Nuff said.
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| Monday. |
| 12.28.03 (4:44 pm) [edit] |
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Haven't touched my blog in days. What a way to end 2003. Juz when I thought the next handful of days would be smooth sailing before the new year starts, my mum ended up with bronchitis. The weekend was spent shuffling to and fro the hospital. Not sure when she'll be discharged but hopefully within these few days. Still waiting for the results of the chest scan. Will be prayin for a speedy recovery.
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| What...?! |
| 12.26.03 (2:04 am) [edit] |
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I got a fright juz now. As I was walking into the lavatory... a really intense dizzy spell hit me. It lasted for a couple of moments and I had to grab onto the sink for balance. Everything was spinning and though it was brief, it scared the crap out of me. Really hope this isn't an indication of a possible return of the migrain I once had when I was younger. Touch wood.
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| 12.25.03 (5:05 pm) [edit] |
One spoonful of coffee... 2 spoonful of coffee... lalalalala... 3 tablespoonful of sugar.... dededadada... to wash some stale crackers down my throat...
Man... I need a better song to start a Friday morning... sheeeesh... :P
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| A simple day off :) |
| 12.25.03 (7:11 am) [edit] |
I had a pretty low key Christmas this year. Woke up at 12.45pm. A personal record I might say :) Stayed up late last night to chat with one of my net buddies over MSN. Ended up sleeping at around 3am. Gaahhhh...
Anyway... popped in an old DVD after lunch and spent the afternoon lazing away in the sweltering tropical heat. Was glad that the heat abated later during the day.
Hmm... what should I do with the remaining afternoon? Well, I grabbed a bottle of h2o, my faithful digicam and head off to the foothill of Bukit Jambul. There was already a pretty big crowd of hikers then.
I took my own sweet time to climb the hill. Along the way, I managed to indulge in a new hobby of mine which is photography. As I reached the summit, I was greeted by a spectacular panaromic view of the island.
Spent quite some time there, soaking in the scenery, watching the crowd cavorting around and taking quite a number of photos. The restspot was maintained by volunteers stayin around the area and all the stuff needed to run the place was carried up by willing hikers. Was really nice to see that they provide free tea to the weary but enthusiatic hikers.
Before I left, I decided to drop a generous donation into the metal tin box which goes to the maintainence of the place. It was a nice little spot where one can unwind and not give a hoot bout the world. I'll be back again :)
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| Christmas... |
| 12.24.03 (8:38 am) [edit] |
It's exactly 12.30am. Yeah... half an hour have passed since Christmas morning.
Came home bout 9.30pm yesterday. Took a long warm shower. Which feels really good when ur entire body is aching like mad.
My cellphone hav been pretty dead for bout 10 months now. I wonder why I continue keeping it when I could hav terminated my subsciption and save some moolah every month. I usually end up junking it into a corner of my room everytime I reach home since I ain't expecting any calls.
So I was pretty suprised when I started receiving a handful of Christmas sms-es from old buddies which I haven't seen in ages. I know it isn't much but it gave me a warm fuzzy feeling to know that I haven't been forgotten yet. Spent some time replying greetz to them.
As I stare into the incandescent glow of my computer monitor, I'm wondering what the new year has in store for me. Will I be facing more challenges which tests my sanity to the edge like this year have proven to me? Or will I be given a reprise and presented with a smoother year ahead? The latter would be a much welcomed change.
Ah... need to snap out of it. I'll try and sleep it off. Hope the massive amount of caffeine in my system hav been flushed out earlier during the day.
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| Excerpts from a song... |
| 12.23.03 (9:53 pm) [edit] |
[i]Kimi wa ima doko ni aruite
Nani o mitsumete'ru no?
Itsu ka hanashite kureta yume
Oitsudzukete iru no?
Oitori ni natte hajimete
Wakaru koto ga ookute
Kono te o hanasazu ni ireba
Doko made demo ikeru ki ga shita.[/i]
Nope... I'm not japanese. But I used to listen to a lot of j-pop music.
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| Hmmmrppphh... |
| 12.23.03 (5:05 pm) [edit] |
Mummble... mummble... enough sleep not... stoopid sunrise shine face at directly... curtains fly where to... idea no have... grumpy grumpy mornin... yesss?
Think not... pantry head to... caffeine fix... yeeesss. Hehehehehehe :shock:
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| Di-lemma... |
| 12.23.03 (6:59 am) [edit] |
Another day at the office. A boring but a mucho productive one. Glad.
Juz came back from a workout session. Took off my shoes... blister galore. Oww. I need to get way thicker socks.
A weird thing happened to me today. I didn't know how to react. A friend/colleague of mine proposed to his gf today and she happily accepted. Needless to say, he was in cloud 9. Though I smiled and and joined in the festivities, I had this bubbling mixed emotions brewing within me.
Why u might ask? How do I begin? I hav this other friend which I'm pretty close to as well. Now, both of them used have a history together. Long story short, something happened and they split. The guy managed to find another (mentioned above) sometime later while the gal went on with her life and did good with her career.
This female colleague of mine have gained my utmost respect. She took the whole episode with poise and maturity which was beyond her age. Though it hurts her terribly, she managed to keep a composed outlook confidently intact and take charge of her life. There was a point much earlier this year when I was a total wreck for several months when I too suddenly found myself alone. She took some time to talk to me, gave me some valuble advice and in the process; managed to beat some sense into me.
During our chat, I realized that though they were no longer an item, I could sense that she still cares for this guy deeply. Which is why, I hope the news of him getting hitched doesn't reach her too soon. As least not for a while. Both of them are good frens of mine. And I don't know how to feel happy for both parties in this kind of circumstance. Huge di-lemma.
Maybe I'm just afraid. Could be the fact that there is a lingering fear that if one day, I receive news in a similar vein as this, would I be able to handle it? Would I have the strength to take it like a bitter pill and be happy for the other party?
I don't know. Only time will tell. Oyasumi.
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| The law. |
| 12.22.03 (5:39 pm) [edit] |
I juz love this little junk mail I received sometime ago. Everytime I read it, I laugh my head off coz, in some twisted way, it sounds so similar to real life :lol:
[i][b]Law of the jungle.[/b]
Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling.
Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed with iced water, which makes them miserable.
Soon enough, whenever a monkey attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys not wanting to be sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.
Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder. One of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the room.
Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other monkeys are doing the obvious, but undaunted, he immediately begins to climb the ladder.
All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly.
He has no idea why. However, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.
A second original monkey is removed and replaced.
The newcomer again attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out of him. This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new monkey.
One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced.
Eight new monkeys are now in the room. None of them has ever been sprayed by iced water. None of them attempts to climb the ladder. All of them will enthusiastically beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.
"AND THAT'S HOW THE COMPANY'S POLICIES GET ESTABLISHED" [/i]
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| Hi! Evening all ^_^ |
| 12.22.03 (6:27 am) [edit] |
Welcome to my humble blog :)
I'm just a regular guy somewhere on a corner of this planet. I have another blog elsewhere on the web but I decided I needed a place where I can express my thoughts and views with no inhibitions whatsoever. Besides... it's great to hav my own domain name for my blog... hehe
It 's pretty nice to start over again where nobody knows you and you're free to write anything. I took too many precautions in my previous blog as I have a number of colleagues who blog at the same site. It was sorta turning into a forum. Here, I hope I can speak my mind without offending anyone.
Well, guess this is my first real entry. Hope there will be many more to come :D
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| Here we go :) |
| 12.22.03 (4:16 am) [edit] |
This is my first blog at tblog.
Just trying out the features available 1st.
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